“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.” ~Ashley Smith
It’s been six weeks since my last radiation treatment. My doctors are happy with how I am healing. I am very slowly, but very surely getting my energy back. Back to working longer hours, enjoying more activities with the kids and embracing the warm summer days. My brain is feeling sharper as the days go on. The radiation “fog” as they call it, is definitely lifting. I am listening to my body and resting when needed – or at least trying to.
The biggest reminders of what I have been through, other than the scars (both physical and emotional)…… and the daily feeling of exhaustion…….is – hot flashes at night! This apparently is a common side effect of the Tamoxifen. Tamoxifen is a medicine that blocks the effects of the estrogen hormone in the body, it is used to treat and prevent the breast cancer from recurring. I will be taking it for the next ten years.
My poor family wakes up every morning freezing because I wake up so hot in the middle of the night that I have turned the air down to 70! Christopher is sleeping in his flannel footy pajamas. Connor and Dan both sleep with extra blankets and Sam, well, as long as she has her Iphone she’s fine. As we all adjust to the our new normal, we’re trying not to miss a beat and enjoy the summer to its fullest. Regardless of temperature!
After a very taxing six months, I am finally settling into the summer. Every day I wake up, try to smile, and try not to sweat the small stuff. It’s not always easy, but at the end of the day I feel very blessed. It’s hard to be patient with myself and my healing journey…..I just want to feel 100 percent – NOW……but this is part of my life’s lesson and I’m trying to be a good student. I’m learning patience and acceptance. Acceptance of where I am at this very moment in time. The present. I’m grateful for the little gifts along the way and finding beauty in the simple moments of life. Life is precious and I don’t ever want to take a single day for granted.