The Final Stretch of Radiation.
With only one week left of radiation, I should feel elated……..instead I feel absolutely exhausted.
There have been days during this process that I’ve been able to ignore the seemingly never ending feeling of tiredness and soreness, and operate as if I’m not going through treatment for cancer. Those days are like bright rays of sunshine, filled with hope and normalcy. I love those days. There are other days, though, that its just hard to deal with the day to day stuff – like kids, work and life.
Today is one of those days. I’m tired of feeling yucky and sore. I don’t want to complain, that’s not who I am……but cancer sucks. No matter how good the diagnosis, how proactive the treatment, its still just TOUGH. Emotionally and physically…..there’s just no way around it. I need to acknowledge that without feeling bad about it.
When I am feeling down, I go to books for inspiration. The Daily Word my Mom gave me, the Living Word devotional that Gloria gave me and the prayer book that Pat sent to me from Arkansas.
Here is a synopsis of what I read today.
“Let Me help you get through this day. There are many possible paths to travel between your getting up in the morning and your lying down tonight. You can choose to walk with Me along the path of Peace, leaning on Me as much as you need. There will still be difficulties along the way, but you can face them confidently in My strength. Draw closer to me. Thank Me for each problem you encounter, and watch to see how I transform your TRIALS into BLESSINGS.”